homesick

i want to go home. i miss everything about where we lived. we got a letter from the IRS saying we have to pay back the first time homebuyers credit because we arent living there anymore. is it sad that i dont even care anymore? one bad thing after another. its like im not suppose to be here in california. maybe i should just go home. i havent been able to get treatment in 3 weeks. medical has switched my plan and now my doctors office doesnt accept me. unless i want to pay $1,000.00 every time i want to get infusion. maybe im doing this all wrong. maybe i missed something. im so tired of living with my mother. i dont feel like a mom anymore. i dont want to do anything. where is my sunshine?