i hate not updating my blogg in forever because now i have A LOT to update. i guess ill start with the most fun since im too lazy to re-read what ive already written. ok, here we go...

so i mentioned i wished i could take my family to disneyland before i got worse. but i didnt have the money anyways. suddenly Jennifer tells me she has a friend who does fundraisers for situations like mine. so she filled a bus full of people ready to donate more money and head to a casino to loose it hahah. anyways, everyone had a blast. then i had my wonderful Hyrum ward send me some donations which i didnt expect it.then our car club did a cruise for us too. then we had random donations from friends as well. now ive also filled for the make a wish foundation for adults but i dont think i will get the dates i wanted but hey, its all donation so i guess i should be grateful either way.

on a sad note these past few weeks ive gone down hill pretty badly. i no longer have controll of my legs from my waist down. im not sure if the 3 falls previous had anything to do with it but oh well to that too. its the strangest feeling staring at your own feet and not being able to move your toes.every now and then i just move my legs manually for a bit. and i cant tell you how humiliating it is to have robert be the one to clean me up when i need to use the bathroom. i really wish there was an easier way.

now the good news. Alicia is almost one week away from her due date. shes so late she has to pop sometime. im excited to see what her baby will look like.. and thats the update